It has been a long time since I have written just for me (and for anyone else who cares to listen). I've been busy with work, and the little I do write tends to be with my wonderful community over at Living Sober. But, I have been thinking I wanted to start re-recording my journey, because although nothing has changed, everything is changing. I feel like a new chapter may be about to begin.
When I last wrote I was in the throws of giving up coffee. Well, I succeeded. I still have some caffeine (tea) but am not throwing coffee down my throat in copious amounts. I do miss it, but boy have my anxiety levels come down. I feel so much better for it, and it's fantastic for my bank account!
So booze has gone, coffee has gone - what is next for me? I do believe that a form of self-care and peacefulness is where I am headed next. It's the next part of my journey. Over the years I have understood that I, with my high anxiety high stress life, am in desperate need of some sort of mindfulness practice. When I have attempted it the benefits have been vast - but I have never stuck at it. "Too busy" I say ... "you are going to break down if you continue like this" something deep within me replies. So, I have begun to read, talk to people, think .... most important seek.
Maybe, just maybe, it's time for ME to stop dammit!